Sunday 21st October 2007tRINITY xX
Fr Julian Browning
Genesis 32 : 22 – 31 ; II Timothy 3 : 14 - 4 : 5 ; Luke 18 : 1 – 8
I have seen God face to face, and yet my life is preserved. Genesis 32.30
Jacob wrestled his way from fear to faith. He entered a new dimension, a new understanding of the truth about himself and about God, a relationship built on blessing.
If you are depressed, or stressed, or just can't sleep, there is
a time of the night, about three or four in the morning, which is
particularly grim. It's too late to have a good night's sleep, and it's
too early to get up. In the Bible, the night is a time of fear, and
this great story of Jacob wrestling with God takes place at night. It
derives from old stories of spirits and demons, who guarded particular
places such as this stream Jabbok, but who are powerful only at night.
The story has been reworked many times, and is now mysterious to us,
with its strange blessings and renamings. In our nitpicking modern
literal way, we could say that the story is corrupt, mixed up, beyond
our comprehension. But that's our loss. A short story might not be
true, but it can reveal truth. A poem can remain mysterious, yet still
open a new world to our imagination. The story of Jacob wrestling with
God reveals to us our own struggle with religion, our lifelong battle
to see God face to face.
Jacob is a treacherous man who cheated his brother Esau out of his
father's blessing. Like most of us, he has a secret life of which he
can not be proud. But matters come to a head, as they usually do in
life, and Jacob has to cross this difficult stream, on his own, on a
journey which will bring him to the day of reckoning with his brother.
He is in danger of his life. This is Jacob's rite of passage, from
danger to safety, from night to day, from shamed outcast to the one who
is blessed by God and given a new name. During the night he does not
know the name of the man with whom he wrestles. This is only revealed
when day has broken, and Jacob can say, I have seen God face to face.
The story is a marvellous description of a man at the crisis of his
life, wrestling with his own meaning and destiny. Our journey will be
like that. The weariness, the confusion, the anguish which is part of
every human life might well be part of our struggle with God, our fear
of the truth, but in the darkness we won't know that. We just think
God's not there. We don't know God until the day breaks. Faith isn't
knowing the answer, faith is the decision to wrestle till dawn. When
day breaks, Jacob is a changed man, expressed physically in the rather
odd limp which he now has, but we know he's changed because he has
received God's blessing, and is to be known as the founder of the
nation Israel.
There is one strange feature of this story which makes it, I believe, a
story for our time. To the embarrassment of later commentators, Jacob
wins. He defeats God in a wrestling match. The man who cheated his
brother out of a blessing now forces a blessing out of God. Why is this
shocking? Because we have been brought up to believe in a God who
always wins, who demands submission, the God of thou shalt not. If you
wrestle with that God, you lose. This is the Old Testament God whose
face you can not look upon and live. This is the angry fundamentalist
God who is gaining supporters in Christianity and Islam. But the agenda
of that God is set, not by God, but by his supporters. They say: This
is what God says, this is what you must do. The danger we face is just
what St.Paul warns us against in the epistle. The time is coming when
people will not endure sound teaching, but having itching ears they
will accumulate teachers to suit their own likings. I am delighted that
Jacob won his battle. Here is hope for all of us struggling to be
Christians. Maybe you find it easy to be a Christian. I don't. But
stories like this help me. In the story of Jacob wrestling at the
ford of the Jabbok, we get a glimpse of the wonderful God preached by
the Anglican Church in her less dotty moments down the ages, the God
who accompanies us through the night of doubt and sorrow, whether we
recognise him or not, the God who is all-powerful but who comes down
from heaven for our sake, the God glorious in defeat, the God whose
natural relationship with us is one of blessing, the God who sees us
face to face. This was Jacob's achievement over that terrible
night. He crossed from fear to faith. Mad mullahs, including the
Christian ones, usually take us in the other direction, from faith to
fear. Jacob wrestled his way from fear to faith. He entered a new
dimension, a new understanding of the truth about himself and about
God, a relationship built on blessing. The effect of all this on his
own life, we learn in the next chapter, and this is not just a story,
it is a truth of religion being handed down the generations in story
form. What Jacob most feared, retribution from his brother, never
happened. Esau ran to meet him, and embraced him, and fell on his neck
and kissed him, and they wept. Reconciliation with God leads to
reconciliation with each other. The one who struggles to the end
receives the divine blessing. So, as Jesus says in the Gospel, there is
every reason not to lose heart, however long the night.